i was made to entertain.
second child tossed aside by the great deeds of the first,
entertain was the only way to get the attention an infant thrists,
so thats what i did.
threw jokes to get a laugh, sang songs for a clap, anything to get a "nice job zach..."
to be called by my name instead of "his brother", i had to stand out, to be known as an other instead of another,
so i worked at the craft till i could present it in hand,
no parental fan.
father was busy with the older so was the mother, 
until the younger stepped on a stage for a chance,
brave they called him, 
only then was he praised 
but no he wasn't born this way, 
shy from birth to get heard had to SCREAM had to beam to be seen, out of fear he would be tossed away..
yeah i was made to entertain

the vibes aint right

now i've never studied feng sway, but i get the concept, a reason for each space and finding ways to make that reason reasonate.
 echo throughout but out here in this house, the vibes aint right.. see niether have my parents ever studied the art but even the concept is loss, to them a place for each thing means where ever you can find an empty spot... my moms in the garage watching television, while my dad falls asleep on the mattress he's "strategically" placed in the living room so that you can't move to any other place in this place without waking him up, leaving me,
in this bathroom.. the only place that feels open enough for me to make a sound without waking anyone up but FUCK IM HUNGRY and i cant get to the kitchen, without tip toeing around as if not to disturb the rest of someone in the LIVING room. theres no place to congregate, every area is marked with items that make the rooms reasonate with ownership instead of co habitants. leaving a child to do the only plausable thing and mark his own shit, this isnt how we're suppose to live, nothing new or fresh can come through these doors or windows because there is no flow, the vibes aint right

20 New Year’s Resolutions For 20-Somethings

JAN. 2, 2012 

By JESSIE ROSEN

1. Before you status update, Tweet, Tumble or Instagram, pause and say to yourself, “is it entirely necessary that I share this morsel of thought with my entire social network?”and if the answer is not, “yes, I absolutely must,” then step away from the Internet.
2. Know which candidate you’re going to vote for in the upcoming presidential election, and know why.
3. Enough with the 14-day juice cleanses. If you want to lose a little weight quickly, eat less and exercise like crazy. If you want to lose a lot of weight slowly, do whatever Jennifer Hudson did.
4. If you really like the person you’re hooking up with and would like them to be your boyfriend/ girlfriend, find a way to tell them, and hope for the best. If you don’t and wouldn’t, stop.
5. Find a way to save approximately 300 dollars and spend it on a flight to see a friend or family member who lives far away.
6. Please stop liking the Kardashians, all of them. It’s not helping anyone, least of all the Kardashians.
7. Spend less than or equal to the money you earn each month.
8. Wear clothes that fit you, especially to work.
9. Call someone on the phone at least once a week, and speak to him or her for at least ten minutes.
10. Start preparing now to get over the fact that Facebook is probably going to change again in six months. You’re not going to deactivate your account. You don’t know how.
11. Wait 30 seconds before you look up a fact you can’t remember on your phone, and try to remember it using your brain. This is what the olden days were like.
12. Replace one terrible reality show you’re currently watching with one wonderful scripted show currently available on television.  Swap suggestion: Real Housewives of Anywhere for HBO’s Enlightened.
13. Try that food you think you don’t like but have never actually tried, unless it’s brussels sprouts. They really don’t need any more attention.
14. Cut one person out of your life who you truly do not like and add one person who you truly do. Note: not on Facebook, on Earth.
15. If you’re still blacking out regularly, you should stop.
16. Volunteer once over the next 90 days.  You’ll feel really good about it, and probably end up volunteering again over the next 275.
17.  Tell someone who you love that you love them on a more regular basis. To their face, not in a text.
18. Back up your entire online life onto an external hard drive, especially your photos.
19. Crap or get off the pot. This applies to whatever thing you’re not doing that you should just sack up and do already.
20.  And in the eternal words of Tom Haverford, “TREAT YO SELF!”

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